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I'm 47% obsessed. How obsessed are you?

The Ringer Obsession Test

At least I'm not a dwarf...

I'm [YOUR OBSESSION PERCENT GOES HERE] obsessed. How obsessed are you?

The Ringer Obsession Test


I don't believe this. I thought that I'd score really high on fanfticism. But apparently, Im just not obsessed or fanatic enough. Darn! Not even 50%. But at least that's a pretty healthy score. And at least i was HONEST! Which was not entirely the case for SOME!

Ah well! I shall do it all over again! I'll still be honest with my answers.... erm... just a little more exxagerated with some, i suppose!

Haha! Its been like a whole a month since I last updated! But well, better late than never. At least it hasn't been 2 months!!!

I decided to log on and blog today cos I had a most crazy thought.

I was sitting in bed last night, re-writing the 2nd and 3rd chapters of my fict, when I started thinking of the Sydney bunch... as elves personified! How strange!

Fels: Ersetor, Chief Counsellor to Elrond, Master Strategist. Must have come from all that Utopia.

Mr Ngo: Glorfindel, Balrog Slayer, Re-born Sneschal of Imladris. Boy, do I see Glory at the pubs after a hard days work slaying orcs and Wijayas. HAHAHAHAHA! Nah....! Just someone everyone loves, I guess.

WT: Gildor Inglorian. Not book cannon, but lord of the wandering elves to me.

Trex: Arwen --> Duh

Nicky Boy: Elrond, Lord of Imladris. Elrond as according to cannon. NOT MOVIE CANNON.

LM: Haldir. Marchwarden of the Golden Woods. Now, I wouldn't have wanted to give my ddb Haldir away to LM. Nothing against her. Just that I thought and thought and thought. And somehow, she just fell right into it. I mean, you kinda think that shes really arrogant and all that when you first know her, but then, she does take care of all of us after all, much like Haldir taking care of Rumil and Orophin, as well as well... Lorien, I guess. So there. Its Haldir for her.

So there you go. That's all of us in a nutshell. I've been thinking of fitting everyone in, and going to the extent of changing their names in my mobile phonebook to their... erm... elf namesake??? But I kinda thought that was taking it too far.

Oh yeah. I've been writing quite a bit lately. But its hard to actually post anything really concrete, cos I'm not too decided on what the storyline will ultimately be, and its hard to do so with the constant re-writes. but here's something i've stolen from Eawen Penallion.

"If you happen to be working on some creative writing project, post a sentence from each of your current work(s) in progress in your journal. It should probably be your favourite or most intriguing sentence so far, but what you choose is entirely your discretion. Mention the title (and genre) if you like, but don't mention anything else. This is merely to whet the general appetite for your forthcoming work(s)."

Only 1 major WIP.

Fulfillment: Prologue
But what would have struck an obeserver most would have been the blanked expression and stillness of the dark elf in contrast with the open vulnerability of the golden elf. Lips trembling as he pressed little kisses to erestor's dark head, the observer would have seen grief; so palpable in the great shuddering breaths he took, in the desperation with which he held onto to the unmoving body, in the silver tracks which ran down his face, and in his blue eyes once brilliant but dulled with the double-edged sword that was love.

Fulfillment: Chapter 1
He agonised over which words or phrases to use, he worried over the length of his report, and fretted over the myriad ink blots which marred the parchment and the legibility (or illegibility) of his script. More oft than not, he would give in to his frustrations and end up handing in what he thought looked like something the cat dragged in. Erutalon was an elf who worked hard, and took pride in his work. But writing simply defeated him, and he hated having to submit such inferior work, and to the Chief Counsellor no less!

Till Next We Meet!
Toots!

Cos its so totally IN right now, I've decided to adopt an absolutely useless blob for..... erm... whatever you wanna call it. Here's a retro disco blob....

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Ooh! Here I am, sitting in bed with the lappie, knowing that I should probably start on my abnormal Psych if I don't wanna kill myself over the next few days. I feel absolutely lazy and decadent just sitting here not doing anything, but getting away for a litle R&R.... Did the Neuroscience exam today, and I'm just really glad that I'm over and done with. Thought that it would be an absolute killer, but at least I knwo that I'll be able to get a decent grade for it. Hopefully it'll all turn out well. Anyway, that exam's over and done with, and I shall not dwell on it further.

You know how you get through a day feeling like a robot when suddenly, there's this one thing that makes you feel warm and loved and really happy??I woke up this morning bright and relatively early, hoping that I could finish off the rest of the lectures, and squeeze in a little bit of revision before the exam. Managed to finish my revision, even though Curthoy's section was covered in a really slipshod manner. Was walking to uni and hoping that I could bump into LM. Its almost become routine, and she's really calming for me. Didn't see her and ended up going into Maclaurin Hall without seeing anyone. So there I was, sitting at my assigned table right at the back of the hall, taking a Senior unit of something which I failed in Year II, feeling utterly stressed and miserable, when suddenly, someone rubbed my back from behind and gave me a little squeeze. Ah yes! LM was there to give me a little encouragement, just when I needed it! And so, I began to fill in my forms when there was another pat on the back, followed by a hand squeeze, arm aqueeze and hand wave! There were my buddies, all filing into the hall, in the exact same predicament I was in - And Suddenly, I just didn't feel so alone and miserable anymore.

What an amazing thing touch can do and communicate.

Makes me wanna go out there giving peeps hugs and Sara lee cookies!

My gosh! I haven't been blogging lately, cos I've just been feeloing too lazy. Am thinking of switching to loivejournal instead, cos everyone writes in loivejournal, and the blogrings are really cool. Only thing is, if i'm really serious about getting into it, I gotta come up with a pseudonym. Was in bed with the appendix og the sils in front of me, cos i decided to try looking for a name, and the only thing that I could come up with was Alcarinque -->The name of a constellation named for 'The Glorious'.

So glad that Eawen now has a lj site. Cos makes checking for updates a whole lot easier. Decided to leave an encouraging message for her. She writes so well.

Now I have to figure out what to do to get a beta. Its so scary how everyone's ficts are so well written....

And meanwhile, I have my exams to think about

I'm so unmotivated.

Argh.

I want to wipe that smug smile off her face-

Repeatedly

With my fist.

Rain rain, go away, come again another day..... yes, yes, its been raining 2 days 1 night in a row already. How annoying. I hate it when this happens. I hate it when the day is so dreary. Sigh..... I realy miss purple storms that flash and roar. Talk about a tempest. Miss hearing the wind howl, and the skies flash and roar. Haha! And Ella and Elro used to wonder whether they were balrogs or dragons fighting with the Valar. How funny! Ok, I'm getting obsesed. I haven't gone to MPA to vote lately. I'm just so annoyed everytime i see ppl voting for crap fict writers. I'm like
"puh-lease, gimme a break man" You're supposed to nominate writers you think deserve to win, and not writers you're voting in simply because they're your 'friend' FRor goodness sake man! Read all other stories before you cast your vote and waste it on someone who doesn't have half as much talent. Humph.

I'm so annoyed. I've reformatted my computer about 3 billion times already. Ok. Not quite. 3 times already. And what do you know, but its infected with 3 worms and 1 trojan AGAIN. Bloody hell man. At least, its not because I haven't been using firewalls or whatever. Its cause "This worm exploits the Windows LSASS vulnerability..." Meaning that I shoulda downloaded the windows crit updates. Argh. Shall borrow the service pack from the girls later. I'm still annoyed though.

Think I was a little mean to Da Jie just now. Oops! Sorry girl. I was very crabby cos of the damn worms. Argh! Wonder if anyone has written anything for the juicer yet. Shall go check now. My muses haven't been talking to me lately, so haven't even really thought about the current theme. Shal;l get to work on it soon though.

Whee! The MPA Award nominations are now on! I'm quite excited really! Can't wait for voting to end, and the award presentation to start! Its gonna be held in the Elven Lord group, and I really wonder how its gonna work out with all the posts people have been making. I feel really bad, cos I haven't been able to vote for those that I really wanted to vote. I mean, everyone's just really good, especially in the best elf story category. I sure hope Eresse wins though, though I must say that Eawen's really good too. It's just too bad cos I woulda voted for her, if competition wasn't so tight... Sigh... I shall leave a comment on her page later, and let her know that I think she's doing really well so far. A little encouragement goes a looong way! It might make her update her chapters a little faster too! Hehe!

I've been in a strange mood. Shall leave you with something I read not too long ago.

"We know that behind the opaque cloud of our ignorance and the uncertainty
of detailed outcomes, the historical forces that shaped the century, are
continuing to operate. We live in a world captured, uprooted and transformed by
the titanic economic and scientific process of the development of capitalism,
which has dominated the past two or three centuries. We know, or at least it is
reasonable to suppose, that it cannot go on ad infinitum. The future cannot be a
continuation of the past, and there are signs, both externally, and, as it were,
internally, that we have reached a point of historic crisis. The forces
generated by the techno scientific economy are now great enough to destroy
environment, that is to say, material foundations of human life. The structures
of human societies themselves, including even some of the foundations of the
capitalist economy, are on the point of being destroyed by the enemies of what
we have inherited from the human past. Our world risks both explosion and
implosion. It must change.

We do not know where we are going. We only know that history brought us to
this point and- if readers share the argument of this book - why. However, one
thing is plain. If humanity is to have a recognisable future, it cannot be by
prolonging the past or the present. If we try to build the third millennium on
that basis, we shall fail. And the price of failure, that is to say, the
alternative to a changed society, is darkness."

- Hobsbawn (1994) Age of Extremes: The short Twentieth Century (1914-1991) p.584

so its 2am huly 27 2002 and we're driving thru the middle of nowhere on our way to a show in chicago. i haven't showered in a week, i'm running n no sleep, i miss cashdogg and some kid at the show today asked me "why i even call myself punk". these my sound like complaints but actually i'm really happy. i am listening to this record. yea i'll admit it. i listen to our records and i'm thinking how crazy all this is. 3 years ago i was stocking shelves at target living on ramen noodles and crashing at billy's house. now i'm on tour. 4 kids from nowhere. we made another record and i feel just as excited as i did the first time. i say this all the time but i mean it, if this all stopped yesterday i would stilll feel like the luckiest guy alive. i remember going into my room after school writing letters to record labels saying "you can sign us now for cheaper" and sending out demos. i laugh about it now but back then i was so serious. you know we dreamed about this all day everyday and i gotta say it feels just as i thought it would.

our goals may have changed. i'll admit its not about getting famous or making millions of dollars anymore. yeah, i used to day dream about that, being broke gets old quick but now i have sorta seen how it all works and i don't want to be the biggest band in the world i want to make music with paul, billy and joel. that's all. i want to tour. i want to be good to my friends. i want to take care of my family. i want to meet kids at shows. that's real to me

i see some bands and i get frustrated for them. its easy to get lost in the whirlwind of all this but i realise that we all have to learn on our own, we are still learning. we have made our share of mistakes. we have done some cheesy stuff. but its god to look back and laugh at how young we were. i see a lot of bands worrying about credibility and all of that and i guess i have realised it only comes with time if we are still here in 10 years maybe we will still be credible. till then we just gotta do what we want to do, make music. tour. provide for our families. you know i used to fist fight every guy i come across that told me i wasn't punk. lars asked me one night "are you gonna fight the world" he was right, i was pretty stupid. it made me realise we are what we are and no on could change that. i guess we have done a lot of growing up since the last record. we started this when we were 16. its the only thing i've ever had. its probably the only thing i ever will have. i just feel lucky. we are four kids in a rock band from waldorf.. we're no better then just any other band out there and we know it. so thanx for making this real. see ya at the show

benj
good charlotte
the young and the hopeless

Haha! Its been a good day today.Was supposed to wake up early today, and do work. But somehow, I slept in till about 10, and woke up past 11. I feel free, and I feel easy. Woulda been an even more perfect day if only I didn't have all these assignments hanging over my head.... :(

I have resolved to keep my desk neat for the next week or so.

Am supposed to be doing my neuroscience presentation stuff now. But somehow, can't seem to concentrate. Could have something to do with me blasting Good Charlotte in the background. I've seemed to have gotten off the whole soundtrack phase already, and am totally in the mood for some punk rock/ rock pop stuff.

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