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Tuesday, September 28, 2004

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Leanne rocked @ 9/28/2004 11:29:00 PM | Comment

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Monday, September 20, 2004

Whee! The MPA Award nominations are now on! I'm quite excited really! Can't wait for voting to end, and the award presentation to start! Its gonna be held in the Elven Lord group, and I really wonder how its gonna work out with all the posts people have been making. I feel really bad, cos I haven't been able to vote for those that I really wanted to vote. I mean, everyone's just really good, especially in the best elf story category. I sure hope Eresse wins though, though I must say that Eawen's really good too. It's just too bad cos I woulda voted for her, if competition wasn't so tight... Sigh... I shall leave a comment on her page later, and let her know that I think she's doing really well so far. A little encouragement goes a looong way! It might make her update her chapters a little faster too! Hehe!

I've been in a strange mood. Shall leave you with something I read not too long ago.

"We know that behind the opaque cloud of our ignorance and the uncertainty
of detailed outcomes, the historical forces that shaped the century, are
continuing to operate. We live in a world captured, uprooted and transformed by
the titanic economic and scientific process of the development of capitalism,
which has dominated the past two or three centuries. We know, or at least it is
reasonable to suppose, that it cannot go on ad infinitum. The future cannot be a
continuation of the past, and there are signs, both externally, and, as it were,
internally, that we have reached a point of historic crisis. The forces
generated by the techno scientific economy are now great enough to destroy
environment, that is to say, material foundations of human life. The structures
of human societies themselves, including even some of the foundations of the
capitalist economy, are on the point of being destroyed by the enemies of what
we have inherited from the human past. Our world risks both explosion and
implosion. It must change.

We do not know where we are going. We only know that history brought us to
this point and- if readers share the argument of this book - why. However, one
thing is plain. If humanity is to have a recognisable future, it cannot be by
prolonging the past or the present. If we try to build the third millennium on
that basis, we shall fail. And the price of failure, that is to say, the
alternative to a changed society, is darkness."

- Hobsbawn (1994) Age of Extremes: The short Twentieth Century (1914-1991) p.584





Leanne rocked @ 9/20/2004 10:37:00 PM | Comment

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Friday, September 17, 2004

so its 2am huly 27 2002 and we're driving thru the middle of nowhere on our way to a show in chicago. i haven't showered in a week, i'm running n no sleep, i miss cashdogg and some kid at the show today asked me "why i even call myself punk". these my sound like complaints but actually i'm really happy. i am listening to this record. yea i'll admit it. i listen to our records and i'm thinking how crazy all this is. 3 years ago i was stocking shelves at target living on ramen noodles and crashing at billy's house. now i'm on tour. 4 kids from nowhere. we made another record and i feel just as excited as i did the first time. i say this all the time but i mean it, if this all stopped yesterday i would stilll feel like the luckiest guy alive. i remember going into my room after school writing letters to record labels saying "you can sign us now for cheaper" and sending out demos. i laugh about it now but back then i was so serious. you know we dreamed about this all day everyday and i gotta say it feels just as i thought it would.

our goals may have changed. i'll admit its not about getting famous or making millions of dollars anymore. yeah, i used to day dream about that, being broke gets old quick but now i have sorta seen how it all works and i don't want to be the biggest band in the world i want to make music with paul, billy and joel. that's all. i want to tour. i want to be good to my friends. i want to take care of my family. i want to meet kids at shows. that's real to me

i see some bands and i get frustrated for them. its easy to get lost in the whirlwind of all this but i realise that we all have to learn on our own, we are still learning. we have made our share of mistakes. we have done some cheesy stuff. but its god to look back and laugh at how young we were. i see a lot of bands worrying about credibility and all of that and i guess i have realised it only comes with time if we are still here in 10 years maybe we will still be credible. till then we just gotta do what we want to do, make music. tour. provide for our families. you know i used to fist fight every guy i come across that told me i wasn't punk. lars asked me one night "are you gonna fight the world" he was right, i was pretty stupid. it made me realise we are what we are and no on could change that. i guess we have done a lot of growing up since the last record. we started this when we were 16. its the only thing i've ever had. its probably the only thing i ever will have. i just feel lucky. we are four kids in a rock band from waldorf.. we're no better then just any other band out there and we know it. so thanx for making this real. see ya at the show

benj
good charlotte
the young and the hopeless


Leanne rocked @ 9/17/2004 02:00:00 PM | Comment

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Haha! Its been a good day today.Was supposed to wake up early today, and do work. But somehow, I slept in till about 10, and woke up past 11. I feel free, and I feel easy. Woulda been an even more perfect day if only I didn't have all these assignments hanging over my head.... :(

I have resolved to keep my desk neat for the next week or so.

Am supposed to be doing my neuroscience presentation stuff now. But somehow, can't seem to concentrate. Could have something to do with me blasting Good Charlotte in the background. I've seemed to have gotten off the whole soundtrack phase already, and am totally in the mood for some punk rock/ rock pop stuff.


Leanne rocked @ 9/17/2004 01:53:00 PM | Comment

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Wednesday, September 15, 2004

my gosh, sometimes, i really surprise even myself. Its 1 am, and here I am, not lazing in bed and reading fan fiction, but tired and a little drowsy after cleaning up my desk. That's right. My desk. Mr Ngo did say that he thought my desk was a fascinating little playground in its own right. Miss Chew's work desk is extremely neat. Miss Lim's is way too messy. He's afraid of touching anything on that desk for fear of stacks of papers falling over at the merest sneeze. But my desk...and i quote, "full of interesting rubbish you can't throw away". And so, I was lying in bed, and going through the shit loads of work i had to do tomorrow, when i loked at my desk, and realised that cleaning up was definitely gonna get me to be more motivated. And so, there I was, sitting up in bed, trying my hardest to concentrate on Glorfindel, while piles of interesting rubbish was waving its hands at me from the corner of my eye, going "clean me! clean me!" And so I did. I have a white desk now, A clean desk, A blank desk, and somehow, it looked too bare and minimal - Absolutly amazing how much rubbish you find. I threw out:
  1. 2 stacks of squashed post-it tags,
  2. 1 lolly from UNSW open house 2003,
  3. 1 sweet Miss Lim gave me eons ago,
  4. a stack of bank and optus brochures,
  5. 4 pens that don't work,
  6. 1 snapped modem cable neatly coiled (thanks to Mr Ngo),
  7. 1 bottle of dried up red nail polish,
  8. 5 union coupons for free somthing-or-others,
  9. and 1 exercise book with barely 10 pages left in it.

Mr Ngo will be pleased and yet disappointed with the demolition of said playground.


We were sitting in Superbowl eating porridge and tofu for dinner when the topic of future uncertainties in work and relationships came up.What with everyone graduating graduating sooner or later, the whole thing about carreer options, detachment and aloofness and 'walking away-ness' came into discussion. Mr Ang said some things that were really provoking, and it just made me think a lot harder about what I've been doing all the while, and how I've been handling my emotions and responses to certain situations. Mostly, I do agree with what he said about how placing barriers in interpersonal relationships may not exactly be the wisest thing to do. And I guess that he's quite right about how its not so much what you can do to prevent yourself from feelling a certain way, but how you handle yourself when things happen that matters. I kinda agree, but I feel like its something that's just not possible with me. I'd like to say that i've got some sort of barrier in place, and that i could simply walk away from them if ever the need arose, but I know that its simply not true. I know I love them all so much, I feel like I'm beginning to get suckered into whatever it is i'm getting suckered into. Its addictive company I'm talking about, and that's the whole thing that makes it so scary. maybe its a sign of dependancy on my part. And this fear that I have is simply an awareness I have on how reliant I am on them? Hmmm .... dunno. One thing's for certain though, and that;s the fact that no matter what happens, no one's ever died from hurt, or faded from grief. We simply pick ourselves up, and move on. Humans are amazingly resilient creatures. Plus, with Jesus on our side what's there to fear of?

I wanna be a rubber ball, bouncing off hard surfaces whenever I fall. Should change email from me going splat to me going "boing!" I reckon.



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